akai dai, tusah nuan wai..

...."finally you update!! i missed you lah......."..

wow..! all these while i've been searching for sumone dat really care bout me.. i try so hard finding and in the end that i realize dat no one is better than ur friend.. and boy friend too.. nt jz boyfriend.. and God for sure.

christine dior aka dior junior..!
thanks yah..!

i kinda lost myself lately.. i think i've wasted lotsa tymes miggling around and doin ntg.. spend spend spend.. money, time... sigh... for doin things laa.. but most of them are useless.. i dunno how many tymes i realize dat i do ntg but still my lazy butt dunwanna change.. hmph.. last year was not a great year for me though sum of my memories last year was ok..

flash back..
january, i join KAYA 16.. crisis with ma dad.. thank God for HIS power dat HE restore da love between me n my dad and we're ok now.. it was a horrible time since im joining KAYA 16 without my dad's permission.. i was crying till my eyes swollen and no more tears cumin out my precious eyes..

then after kaya.. i met this guy named C@#$#.. he come to me as a nice boy with lotsa probs.. and i decided to wanna help him.. tanpa i noe dat he 'menyalahertikan' aka misunderstood.. he tot i help him bcoz im his gf.. wtf..! he told everyone dat im his gf bt im NNNNOT..! so, i tryna keep myself away from him and he say i am snowbish.. slut.. bitch or watever.. adoh doh... baik salah, jahat pn salah.. i end up dunno wat to do until i ask sumbody what shud i do.. so, i juz ignore him laa.. i feel bad sumtymes but i like him u c.. but juz friend.. loves..?? no way man..

then result spm cumin out... again... i disapoint many ppl especially my parents.. at my old place, i used to haf nickname.. "Amanda A's gal".. coz.. in everything i do.. i'll do my best and i owez get da best.. and i must tell dat spm.. its juz 30 percent of my effort. not meningikan diri bt dats true.. sumtymes i wonder.. where is dat little gal dat go to rural school by boat everyday for 6 damn years and the apple of everybody's eye...??? i've change...!!!! for Worst...!!!!

then matrix..!!!
after thousands of money my parents spend on me.. i end up quitting..! wat a shame amanda..
wish i can write more bt i really feel down ryte nw.. to b continue...

useless, meaningless....

GB me...