anyway.. time to be serious. im single now.. and yeah.. still tryna get used to it. the thing is.. i dont know if i should move on or nt coz... everything is left hanging... so yeah... i sucks..
its not easy to forget 4 years relationship. it feels like part of me is gone. ive been dreaming of the day i finally can let go but when it comes.. im so not ready fr it...
i guess love is funny. once u had him u dont want him then u lose him u love him kinda thing. i try to make this as funny as possible ...
truth is.. im hurting inside and nobody noes. i keep asking myself.. WHYYYY???? why me.? after everything we've been through.. i dont deserve this. he is such a jerk... he's gonna pay fr it... i hate him. i wanna kill himmmm. im so pissed...
but then i realize... im just wasting my time hurting myself, my heart, my feelings fr a guy that doesnt even care... and so.. still tryna move on. but i guess now is nt da time...
i'll keep posting. and i wanna do experiment.. how long does it takes fr me to move on.? hahah... till then...
loves,
manda.
